Chris Remus' Personal Blog

My free-form, unfiltered and unorganized space to reflect and explore.

I write a daily priority list every day. It is the single most important work task I do each day. It's limited to 6-8 tasks.

The list helps ground and focus me. I've been doing this for years. In that time, I've learned to scope the tasks to get them done within the day.

This helps remind me that I actually am getting stuff done. It fights the feeling of never getting enough done.

6 tasks feels like the right number. 7 is stretching it. 8 is starting to set unrealistic expectations.

Yet recently I find myself adding 8 every day. This is an indicator something's out of sync. Yesterday I only got half the list done. That's further reinforcement sonething's out of whack.

This demonstrates another daily priority benefit. It can signal that something about my workflow needs adjustment.

I'm not sure what exactly's unsynchronized. I do have some ideas. The awareness and ideas have me feeling hopeful I'll figure it out.

I write a daily priority list every day. It is the single most important work task I do each day. It's limited to 6-8 tasks.

The list helps ground and focus me. I've been doing this for years. In that time, I've learned to scope the tasks to get them done within the day.

This helps remind me that I actually am getting stuff done. It fights the feeling of never getting enough done.

6 tasks feels like the right number. 7 is stretching it. 8 is starting to set unrealistic expectations.

Yet recently I find myself adding 8 every day. This is an indicator something's out of sync. Yesterday I only got half the list done. That's further reinforcement sonething's out of whack.

This demonstrates another daily priority benefit. It can signal that something about my workflow needs adjustment.

I'm not sure what exactly's unsynchronized. I do have some ideas. The awareness and ideas have me feeling hopeful I'll figure it out.

Just Rolling with It's a blog I started a number of years ago. It slowly emerged from an earlier free form blog I started, much like this one.

Here's this week's issue, The Dream Pushers' Holiday 🌲

I wake every day between 5-5:15AM. It's my grounding time, before my wife and son wake.

I usually alternate between exercising and meditating during that time, depending on the day.

In a past life, I used to get home on weekends at 5AM, after being out at a club, listening to house music. This was when I was drinking too, so I'd usually still be pretty buzzed.

I'm reminded of this when I walk our dog in the early morning hours. I'll sometimes encounter people stumbling home, having a few come-down beers on the pier or smoking some weed to wind the previous evening down.

Seeing this makes me feel grateful for the changes and shifts in my life that allow me to start the new day, rather than wind down the night before, at 5am πŸ™

I feel I've been pushing hard this week. The exertion is catching up with me on Thursday evening. My stomach tension at times like this feels like it's locked.

Today felt like a physical and mental sprint since I woke at 5AM. I hope to attend a 2 hour classic hatha yoga class this evening, taught by my teacher, to help slow things down πŸ™

I'm writing this before going to bed. I feel compelled to try and write daily.

This evening this entry feels like a thought dump. It helps clear my mind to write like this.

There's no specific topic, intention, plan or structure. Simply being able to write for the sake of writing feels liberating. Doing so helps break mental gridlock I may be experiencing.

It sure beats mindlessly scrolling through Twitter and other social/chat platforms, grasping for a similar release, that's for sure πŸ™‚

And when to do neither.

I've learned that sometimes the best way to do the most is by doing nothing. Letting the being inform the doing is a beneficial approach at times.

This means thst rather then pushing or pulling to do more, I slow down, with the intention to do less. It's a lesson meditation taught me.

Doing less to do more sounds counter-intuitive. Yet doing this makes our β€œdoing” time more effective and efficient.

First, we're able to better discern what we should actually be doing in the first place. Then, we're able to acually do the doing more skillfully.

The result is better doing. We do more of what we should be doing and we do it better.

The small investment in doing nothing pays itself back many times over in this way.

...things are going smoothly, you experience a power drop with 666 meters to go.

Let me explain.

I'm a cyclist and I train on Zwift. It's a virtual reality cycling app. You can race with others on it.

This morning I decided to do a beginner's race. Although it's early in the training season, the timing felt right to test myself.

I had ample time to warm-up. I got off to a pretty decent start and my breathing felt regulated.

I was set to finish in the top third of riders. That's better than usual for me.

I was pushing hard with 1500 meters to go, then a little harder with 1000 remaining.

I was feeling good, accomplished and in sync.

Then my avatar's power reading dropped to 0 with 666 meters to go. I was pedaling but my avatar wasn't.

Sh*t, power drop...

The Bluetooth connection between my laptop and trainer failed. I thought I had finally fixed the problem earlier this week, after months of troubleshooting.

I guess I hadn't fully. As a result, other riders who had been far behind me zipped past my immobile avatar.

Rather than shattering my expectations I shifted them. Sh*t happens, I reminded myself.

I exited the race, repaired the connection and rode for another 20 minutes. I felt happy I completed my longest indoor ride of the young season, while also making space for the frustrating I experienced from not finishing the race.

I've had better days than today. After experiencing some initial anxiety about having to take a day off from work to watch our son for the day, I settled into a state of looking forward to it.

I anticipated a fun day with him. Then I started thinking about all the household stuff I could use the day to catch-up on too.

Splitting my attention this way got the morning off to a rocky start. My son and I ended up yelling at each other quite a bit.

Since he's 4.5, it's my responsibility to regulate difficult emotions for both of us at times like this. I didn't do that very skillfully this morning.

Getting out of the apartment and connecting with the world around us helped. We pretty much recovered.

Yet I was feeling tense, due to perceived time pressure and scarcity. My patience level was much lower than I would have liked it to be.

But we managed to have a nice afternoon at the Brooklyn Museum together. We bonded during the nasiin bey (a/k/a Mos Def): Negus installation. He seemed to enjoy all 30 mins of it as much as I did πŸ™‚

Yet my impatience and stress still lingered. The little small things that didn't fall the way I'd prefer them to during the day culminated in my partner having to stay late at work. This resulted in me having to miss a much anticipated and planned for yoga class.

A brief cycling workout helped a bit. So did writing this entry.

It's helpful for me to remember the impermanent nature of all phenomena on days like this. I feel grateful for this belief.

Tomorrow's a new day 🌞

The title comes from a headline I skimmed about the impeachment report. I've been thinking about it from an enlightenment perspective.

Enlightenment can sound like a huge deal, lofty and unobtainable. On the other hand, I've been learning it can be viewed as simply seeing clearly.

Yet while seeing clearly may sound easy in principle, it's quite hard in practice. We, as human beings, suffer from many layers of delusion.

They result from eternal forces like society's always-on β€œnews” machine, to The Dream Pushers screaming for our attention and politicians twisting facts.

Delusion also comes from inside us. We become too β€œbusy” to think clearly. Our ego manifests delusions in the storylines we hold as truths, among other causes.

These delusions are one reason it takes overwhelming evidence to see clearly. It's the hope that the evidence cuts through the cacophonous noise, making it easier to see the obvious more clearly.

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